this is my vent session! Just ignore it

I am so angry at this moment in time. I am sick of just about everything! My family is always like yeah we are proud of you for making the decision to go back to church, but the way the act most of the time it shows otherwise. They want everything to be the way it was. Sunday was strictly family day. I am sorry if my decision has inconvenienced them, but it is my decision. They are not going to change my mind. My best friend, my little sister, seems to be pulling away from me even. That one is killing me. I wish that they would just see that I have taken the steps I need to get threw this life so I can make it to the next. I want to live in the presence of God. I think that it may end up that I move out because of this. This is what I need. Don't they see that? Don't they want me to be the best I can. So far that has proved to be living the way the Lord has asked us to.. It isn't that hard.. I mean it is all laid out for you. Yeah you have to figure out some stuff, but isn't the reward so worth it! I lived my life for my family too long. It hurts that I feel like I have to pull away from them, but if I have to I will. I am not going to give up what I finally know to be true and right. This is the way I am suppose to live. I know that with all of my heart. Maybe I need to get out of here, on a trip or something. I wish that I could afford to just up and take off. I need to recenter. Get a couple of things back into focus Maybe I will call up Darcee and see if I can go stay with her a couple of days. I don't really know. What I do know that I wish in some ways U had never falling away the first time. I wish I had never needed to adjust my life like this. I wish that I could have a looking glass just for a minute so I could see that it was all going to work out. I am just frustrated. Hmmm Well, I guess I better go back to family night. So really just disregard this.


On a lighter note just real quick I have decided that I am going to make Monday my weight loss update day. How I am feeling and that kind of thing. And then there is "Silly Word Tuesday" . I will think of some more fun Ideas later